intro
I don't wanna be
Anything other than what i've been trying to be lately
All i have to do
Is think of me and i've got piece of mind
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Sunday, July 23, 2006
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Fear is the mind killer. Fear is the little death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past i will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."I have returned from my long slumber and have returned to the world of blogging. Not much to say, just wanted to break the monotony of work and liven up this almost dead wasteland of a space. With that in mind, lets begin this post.
Can a man change his spots as light changes its colours through its spectrum? We see every man differently through our tinted lenses. Like it or not, we have our own bias against anyone and everyone. Thus in mind, is it really fair to say that he has taken on a new persona? I doubt that fact. Honestly, i do. Even so, has he changed? Yes, without a doubt he has changed. Would i judge for better or worse? I shall observe to comment. There are chinks in the once indomitable armor, the wall of egotism that has stood through the wear and tear of the advice and words hurled at him through the war of words with fellow neighboring friends and enemies alike. One sentence used to smooth out the cracks, "they don't understand me". But yet today he has readily humbled himself to talk and converse with a once dear warring nation. Steps to peace has begun, and are starting to germinate. I look forward with anticipation to peace in the 3 warring states.
Am i too philosophical? Lets simplify my words. If you understood the above, then you are more or less a dear friend of mine or one of the parties mentioned in the above passage.
I don't understand why people pass her by without a notion of acknowledging her beauty, both external and internal. I don't believe that none has fancied her before. Yet i have. But i can't speak to my feelings. My voice fails me to speak these feelings. History has yet to repeat itself once again painfully. I will not fall into history's snare for me and yet again bring the people i love into a tailspin of emotions. You will find a better life with someone out there. Just let me dream about the life we'll never have together and the future that will never be. Just for a moment in time, let this thought linger in my consciousness. A dream that is sent out into the universe of lost hopes, it will never return. I love you and i let you slip through a demon's fingers because i love you. Let love find its course in your life. I won't deny my bitterness, and i won't deny my regret, but i damn the moment my mind set its eyes upon you. I hope to remain in your memories, not as the man who caused you innumerable instances of pain, but as the guy you took photos with and remained friends with, the brother you never had.
This ends my sad but thought awakening post... till next time.
