Dear faithful obviANGEL.blogspot. com readers, I have a confession to make. After so long of posting and not posting, my life has eventually come to a point where i can't find strength to go on anymore. Can't find the strength to smile anymore. Smiling all the time is tiring. Smiling all the time has become so mundane. Mundane is tiring. Hope to find my smile again sometime soon.
Many things have happened in my life to trigger such strong emotions in my heart. Firstly, i've lost contact to a certain Someone that was such an important piece in my life. After so much that i've done against what that Someone taught me, i feel terrible and sometimes i feel like i can't come clean anymore. Afterall... i take for granted somethings that are so precious and treat it as mud... I'm sorry... Help me to change and give me another chance...
Another thing that happened. My family has finally come to its end of the rope. The business has run out of solutions to liquidate itself. The house is going. The finances is a deficit. The family is running into issues. Help piece my family back to normal... i want it to be normal again. I sometimes think what my brother would have done in a situation like this. Come back home soon... I miss you kor... The family misses and needs you home soon...
Thirdly, i know i've been rubbing people the wrong way. And i don't really know why i've suddenly started to be this way... maybe i've not suddenly started being this way... i know sometimes i'm insensitive and say things out that's meant to be kept in. i know that i'm often saying stuff that i shouldn't say. That's the reason i'm losing my friends. I don't want to lose my friends. Its what i hold close to my heart. My friends. Alan, Angel, Tat, Sher, Gen, Cal, Tian, imouto, MMC ppls, OnePackage, StarCactus, Moonflower, whoever and wherever... you are precious to me. If i say something wrong or i do something wrong. Tell me... i'll change... Thanks for being there for me when i needed someone. Thank you imouto... for just listening.
I know these issues aren't sounding like the end of the world to some of you. But its seems like the end of my world. Piece me back to normality. Piece me back to the way things were. Only You know how to....
