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I don't wanna be
Anything other than what i've been trying to be lately
All i have to do
Is think of me and i've got piece of mind
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Tuesday, June 14, 2005
Its currently 5.25 in the afternoon... i am at sentosa, the tourism academy to be exact... sighs... its been a while since i've updated... a lot has happened, a lot that i don't really want to elaborate on. I know this posts sounds very sad or down but i just want to express my feelings in words.
My blogmusic is gone... sad... haiz they banned my angelfire account so i can't host my songs anymore... haiz...
I'm through with the elections... i had enough of it... hate the backstabbing, hate the quarrels... hate it... please please stop the fighting... stop the shouting... stop the bickering... stop killing each other... why can't we be friends?
I just think that things in the "friendship" is souring... everyday i hear more and more, everyday i feel more and more resentment... and then i wonder... if anything that happened before, things that made all of us remember each other, things that we did together and enjoyed ourselves doing, *sigh* i wonder if any of you remeber that... i do... i seriously do... and yet now we're almost breaking apart... hanging by threads of civility that is keeping us from lunging at each other's throats... *sigh* politics and foulplay? i don't know... i don't wanna know... but boy do i hate it... sometimes i wish that somethings didn't happen. things like the elections. things like me attempting to be a part of the MMC... haha... MMC... wonder where's that now... flame me if u will... i don't really care... but are you guys still the MMC you all claim to be since the elections started? You be the judge of that...
Haiz... things aren't simple here over at sentosa as well... well i don't know if i shld say this... i will try to keep things simple and less understandable to keep things still under wraps... haiz... sometimes i wish that things would have remained simple... things wouldn't be like this now... strained... tension... untruth... i tell u this with a heavy and sad heart... i'm honestly caught in between... haiz... i wonder if things will be alright... i wonder if us will still be us... i miss us... i miss the times when we just we able to sit arnd and just crap. i miss the times that we just had fun... i miss the times we went out to katong... i miss us... haha... (laughs dryly) i don't know... i guess i'm emotional, but i have tears in my eyes now... as i recap our past... do u guys treasure wad we had, have and will have?
Lastly... i still think about us... (different us) i sat next to you and pondered about the things we used to do, things that we would have done, and i was broken inside... haha... i guess that i left the LT early was becoz i had tears (again) in my eyes... i guess i'm not over it, even though i think i am... but somethings can't be erased from my memory, my life... my heart... haha... sure kenna scolded for this one... but that is my thoughts and feelings...
i know very sad words have been written on these pages... but i do hope that you, anyone who reads this will think about what they have with people around them... treasure friends while they're there... love them while you still are friends... when it turn around and they are enemies... i hurts you to hurt them... honest... Ponder and think about this...
